It's Labour Day today and I'm stuck at home studying. While Zhiying is out, watching her favourite superhero, Spiderman, swinging here and there.

I feel like staring at the sky and just you know, stare. Thinking about what just happened, I feel like shooting myself with 10 bullets. I really don't understand what made me do it. Oh man. Blame it on Stupidity.

Now I hate you. I really do.
I hate you for allowing me to fall for you.
I hate you for letting me love you.
I hate you for doing what you did.
I hate you for not answering me.
I hate you for liking her without me knowing.
I hate you for being so selfish.
I hate you for everything you said to me cause it was all a lie.
I hate you for being you.

I'm learning to be stronger now. Not physically but emotionally. Yeah. It's doing me good.
After so much, I realised that allowing yourself to cry and moan over something for a period of like, 3 days, depending on how serious is it, of course, is a very good way to help you overcome things. It's like handing up an assignment on the dateline.

There'll definitely be a scar somewhere down there, but at least you're shoving it aside and not letting it show. Putting up a brave front is also good somehow. Acting like it doesn't affect you also helps alot.

So to my clique, when I'm all high and smiley suddenly, don't ask me why. Otherwise I can just break down and cry anytime, anywhere. You wouldn't want that to happen, don't you. And don't mention that ass's name too. Or I'll be angry. Very, very angry. So much so that I may bite.

Oh, I'll be changing my url soon too. Okay. Random.

Beware Of Rachel.

It’s been long since I last updated. Many things, both interesting and uninteresting, have happened along the way. And many things have changed too.

Things like,

- Me getting choked on an APPLE and my face went all red and my tears started flowing out

- How a disaster my Chinese test was

- How bad my attitude was during the past one to two weeks.

-My clique used to have 6 but now left with 5.

-Training is now boring and meaningless without our seniors.

-I’m sick and tired of all the teachers who think they are so great and loves to give inspirational talks. Trust me, it’ll only make things even worse for themselves if ANY of them talk to me about my attitude towards anything. I hate it. I really do. So, watch out.

-I just met a friend whom I haven’t seen since I was Primary 6. And I just realised how much I missed her and how much I regretted doing what I did.

-I just realised how much I hate doing bao zhang du hou gan and going for Chinese lessons. I wanna switch class for Chinese.

-I realised I still have feelings for You. I’m at loss of what to do. (Hey, it rhymes!)

-Science can kill me.

-Principle was being SO irritating today by asking us to sing the school song 6 times. National anthem nobody sing. No 6 times. School song nobody sing, got 6 times. What trash.

Okay. There are many more to name but if I do, I think blogger will hang. So I shall save someone’s life and not do anything harmful to you and I. (Oh, it rhymes again!) I think I’ll do great in poetry. Lol. I think I should leave blogger alone now or I’ll get all emo and my blogskin will turn all black and grey.

Today's Sport's Day was BLAST! :D DODSWORTH GO GO GO!!! CHAMPION FOR SECONDARY SCHOOL!!! WOOHOO!! ;D
I cheered till my throat almost died. The runners all rocked the stadium today. Though there were some ugly scenes (so many people's shoes dropped on the way) but seeing their faces while running, it's actually quite touching. Lol. Okay. I don't know how to describe.

I think the Mass Run was stupid and the Mass Cheer competition was a complete failure. Lol. Most of the people didn't know how to do it and so they kept quiet. Even so, we were still third. Hahaha. For the Field Bonanza thing, I didn't know how they do it but we got TWENTY FOUR points only. Hahahaha. The rest of the houses got 60 and above. If we did better in the cheer and Mass Run, maybe we could overall champion. Anyhow, it's all over. But it was really enjoyable. :)

Can't wait for next year's Sports Day!!! :D

I'm lying to myself?

Yeah, maybe she's right.

Time passes so fast. It's gonna be half the year soon. Which means it's gonna be Sec 4 and 5 farewell soon. Oh mannnnn. I don't wannnnnnnnnnnttttttttttttt. :(

Though both Divisions didn't get anything for both Badminton and Table-Tennis, I must say we all ended our game well. At least we tried. But it's funny how we always get Top 6 or 8 whenever there's SYF. Can anyboday tell me why? Luckily it's only once every 2 years. Otherwise we all die. Yes. Luckily.

This week there will be no trainings which means whole week can go home earlyyyyyy!!! WOOHOO!!! :D

I'll be shifting soon and my house is like now made and filled with carton boxes everywhere. It feels so empty and I don't like this feeling. >:(

Rain, rain go away, come again another day. I don't like rainy days. It makes me all emo and sad and I feel like killing myself. Okay. Maybe not that but, yeah. Sunny days with lots and LOADS of sunshine is GREAT! :D I love to absorb UV rays. Lol. Another way to say tanning! :) Though I don't seem to get tan even though I spend so long under Mr.Sunshine.

I just know many things which I think it's better that I not know but somehow, my ears can't resist whenever people tell me stuff. Some makes me sad, some makes me high all over while some are just, well, nonsensical.

Soprts Day is on Thursday. ALL THE WAY COMPETITORS!!! :D Even though you don't win anything, don't be dissapointed cause it's better than the rest of us sitting there doing nothing and sweat non stop. Yeah, you sweat too, but at least you're DOING something. So BEST OF LUCK TO YOU GUYS!! :D

I've sort it out. I'm over and done with.








Well, maybe that's what I tell myself to believe.