Am i willing to sacrifice my time to love you? Am i willing to give up a huge space for that special you in my heart? Are you worth to be lingering in my thoughts? Is my love for you real? or is it just and affection? Will i change my mind of loving you when i see other guys?

All these questions are the questions that i have been thinking of over this period of time...

Yes. I'm willing to sacrifice my time for you.
Yes. I'm willing to give up that special place for that special you.
Yes. You are worth it.
Yes. My love for you is real.
No. I will definitely, and will never change my mind of loving you.

These are the answers to the questions...I can assure you that all these answers are true...Well, what about you? are you willing? Am i worth it? Is your love for me real? Will you change your mind?
I may sound like I'm not greatly affected...but the truth is, I'm suffering real badly inside...the tears I shed every night shows how much I'm suffering every single moment...

I don't know if the concern you showed for me before was real...
I don't know if you were just simply toying with my feelings...
I don't know if you already like other girls...
I don't know too many things about how you feel about me cause you never seem to tell me...

After that thing that happened, we seem to be drifting apart..further and further away every moment...and this really hurts...

I told myself to forget you. I tried. But, i failed.
I told myself that you may like other girls, so as to force myself to hate you. I tried. But, i failed.
I told myself that there are many other guys out there. Why should I be wasting my time on you? I tried to stop loving you. But, i failed.

The days without you made me feel sad, dissapointed, angry...but once i look at the Taz you sent me before to cheer me up, I smiled. Once i remembered the nights we spent messaging each other, I smiled.

You told me before that I'm the only girl you would call 'Sweetie'...
You told me before that whenever i feel scared, your love would protect me...
You told me before that i was different from other grils...and that there are plenty of them waiting for you...but you chose me...cause you loved me...and i was special...

When you told me all these..I felt really special...I felt really lucky to have such a guy like you...It was then that i was sure you are the only guy i would love all these 13 years and the years to come...
You may have stopped loving me, stop showing concern for me and stuff, but i just wanna let you know that i will always love you..I don't mind if you don't love me anymore..cause knowing you is the best thing God has given me..and i couldn't ask for more...cause this is more than enough...

I really don't mind if you love another girl...I will give you all my blessings...but...I'll wait...I'll wait till that very special day...till then...