Thursday
many people will predict that i will start with a 'TODAY IS THE BEST DAY! WHY? CAUSE ITS THURSDAY!!' but im sorry...today its the WORSE DAY OF MY LIFE..not really worse...but sort of worse so its still considered as worse. i cried yesterday night, i cried this morning in class and zhiying was desprately trying to stop me from crying..HAHAHAHAH..she was fanning me...what is the use, zhiying?? i cried tonight...each have a different reason..i cried yesterday night cause i thought of HIM...yes. again. i cried in the morning cause my dad wants me to QUIT TABLE TENNIS...how can??? you might as well tell me to kill myself can?! table tennis is my life eh...all my bestest friends in there and my wonderful seniors and everything...HOW CAN?? and he was telling me: " i want you to stop table tennis. think of another cca." WTH LEH...at that moment i was lost for words la...humph. not fair. so i poured all the extra water in my body through my eyes in class...but i still attended cca today though..and why i cry tonight?? cause...my father lectured me and my sis about studies and everything...so..yupp...it was horrible....and there is something that is WORSER OF ALL WORSE...I BANGED MY HEAD ONTO THE POLE...yes...everybody..go ahead and laugh...BUT IT WAS PAIN LOR...all thanks to leehuang and valerie and jocleen laaaa...call my name than i turn around than walk walk walk suddenly i turn back then BANG! on my forehead..=(( at that very moment, i wonder how would YOU react...then jy was kind enough to help me rub my head...(thanks!) pain lehhh...just pray that tomorrow would be a better day for me =)

I told you i loved it that way...us being friends and all...but inside, i was crying so badly...i doubt you will understand how i feel...i just feel the whole world crashing down on me..i feel so lost without your love...without your encouragement...without your laughter..without you...i know time can't be turned back...maybe it is just meant to be...