I've thought about giving up. But what would I be...without You? At times, I feel that You don't even know I'm here. Cause when You do, it is always for that one special moment. Maybe I should wait. Maybe I should wait till You you've forgotten about her. I know it'll be hard, for both you and me. But let me give it a try, so let's wait and see.

Well, this whole week was one very, very, very emotional week. Oh man. Yeah, we knew we would lose to RGS from the very beggining. But who knows it'll be that bad? Mr Kim was expecting my pair to win a point for the team and we did made a godd start. But for the following sets, we just failed. And for the final set, to determine wether we could carry on playing and maybe win that one point, that girl hit a cheapskate ball. And mind you, the score was 9-10. So yes, it was over just like that. In that one second. Even though it was quite a good game, I just broke down cause at that moment, everything suddenly seemed destroyed. My hopes, my goals and myself. I can't express it in words now but all I can say is I was disappointed. Very, very disappointed.

Next came our seniors. They've won them since like forever. And it turned out that the results were unexpected but I can tell they really, did want to win very badly. But surprisingly, they trashed us. Some cried, some looked like it was the end of the world.

The next match is on Monday and if we lose, we're out. And it would be difficult to win. All we need now is team spirit. Guys, we are gonna win this and we WILL.

We are gonna do it.

This week is the tiredest week I've ever had. On monday, we had training. Tuesday, competition. Wednesday, tution. Thursday, competition. Yesterday, morning run then 2.4 then training. My goodness. I could have just died on the spot, let me tell you.

The match on Thursday was a good one but also bad in a way cause I played against my tuition friend and I made her cry after we trashed her. Lol. I was hesitating wether to go comfort her but after a verrrrrrryyyyyy long time, I didn't cause she already stopped crying. We won St.Joseph Convent 5-0 and seniors won Presbytarian 4-1. Candice did a really good job. She had fever and still made the effort to come to school, specially for the match. Though she isn't in my division, I still think she rocked :) Way to go! :D

A really wierd teacher keeeeeeeeeeppppsss on talking to me about nonsensical things. There was once during the fire drill when she asked me not to look down from the railings and hurry come down stairs to assemble -__- Then another time, she asked me to pass some stupid disc to some man in my school to ask him to choose a song to sing -__- But I told her I gotta go so I escaped that time. The next was yesterday.

"Rachel, come."

"Yeah?"

"I see that you are doing as well as expected ah."

"Huh?"

"You see your grades. You have a PSLE aggregate of *** so you should be doing much better than this. I want to know the reason why are your marks like this. Why?"

I haven't had the chance to answer and there she goes again.

"I want you to study very hard and get an A2 for ALL your subjects and A2 for your overall."

"What??"

"Yes. I will come and find you again in Week 8."

And she doesn't even teach me ANYTHING. NOTHING at all. She's been all wierd and crazy afer her marriage. I think I'll try to avoid her. A2 for all subjects. It's madness man.

I'm planning to go to the megacamp. But I need more info!! Whoever knows more about it, care to tell me? Cause I need it to persuade my dad :)

Get ready for the battle against Nanyang. GO PL!!! :D

The first few days of school was alright. The days seem muuuuuuuuuuuuuuch longer than last term. Nationals started yesterday, and it was a good start! :) C Div' won Gan Eng Seng 5-0 and B Div' won New Town 5-0.

And for the first time in my life, I wanted to skip chapel. But Zhioink said she didn't want. So we decided to skip when we felt like it. Lol. But we were lucky we didn't skip today cause form teacher was there. So, boo.

Life lesson was the worst of all. We had to listen to that teacher talk about things that don't make sense for one and a half period. Yes. Champion.

Match against Nanyang tomorrow and pray that we at least lose with a score of 2-3.

All the best.

I'll be here. Right here.

Boo, it's the last day of the hols and Yay, it's the last day of the hols. Lol. This week had been a really, really, really busy and tiring week for me. The only day I can officially rest is today so I gave up the trip to sentosa with my cousin and her friends.

Had team outing yesterday. We wanted to get into the arcade so badly that everyone went to Hang Ten and Baleno to buy those 3 for $4 shirt so we can change out of our table-tennis shirts to those. Lol. Women in Blacks. Had a ball of time in there and didn't regret being ugly. Lol.

The ending of Hana Kimi is very stupid. I was so excited to know what will happen in the end and the results of my exitedness is just the stupid ending which doesn't even make any sense at all. Waste my time.

Okay. Someone is gonna be reallllllllllllyyyyyyyy happy till she cries when school reopens. :D I shall tell you guys who when the day comes! Shi mu yi dai!!!! ;D

It's the last day of Term 1. Time really flies. Must be sit bullet-train. Even though it's only a week, I guess I will still miss my Clique.

I will miss Nads, you an your stupid hair :)

I will miss Oyce, you and your expressionless big big face :)

I will miss Zy, you and your stupid actions :)

Iwill miss Pris, you and your loud voice :)

I will miss Sharmos, you and your dumbness :)

And my Term 2's time table is like SHITASS let me tell you first. Tuesday, 7 periods ALL THE WAY without ANY breaks. Just kill me now. Everyday ONE break only. Monday, 4 periods break, another 4 periods then school end. Friday, after morning run is PE. The rest of the days is worst. I shall not mention. Makes me feel faint.

Nationals is only 2 weeks away. We can do it. Oh yes, we can! :D

My 2.4km run today was good :) Did better than expected. Yes, that's the way.

Take a break, take a kit-kat! LOL. This phrase suddenly came to my mind :D

Get ready for a rough ride after the one-week break.

Yes, I do miss You.

My results are like shit. Yes, I admit I didn't spend ALOT of time like other people do for this term's common tests but I spent at least a day on each subject and what I get are shitty results like this. Give me a break.

I don't know why, but somehow, I just cried after seeing my Chem results cause I didn't expect myself to do THAT badly. I got 53, while everyone laugh and smile after seeing their results. The last question was worth 2 marks and the teacher marked it wrong, why? Cause she saw my capital M as a small letter M. You tell me.

I spent a DAY on it. There's not much to study either. After doing the paper, I was confident I could get at least a B3. Now, seeing what shit results I've got, I feel that no matter HOW much I study, NOTHING goes into my head. Yeah sure, at most 2 facts for each topic. What shit.

It's ridiculous when I see people crying when they get 80. I wish I could do that as well. But I guess it would be tears of joy instead. 2 B4s, 1 B3 and 3 C5. Is that all I'm capable of? My highest
mark of all is 65. 65 while others get 95.

You know what? I hate people who are competitive and wants to be the highest cause there are people, like me, who can't even manage a high B3, or even have failures, in her first Term.

Just wish me all the best, cause it's the streaming year.

Guess what. He didn't scold/say/do anything to me just now during training. I guess he forgot all about it :D

Had a very, VERY, VERY, VERY badddddddd gastric in the morning out of a sudden. I couldn't even stand please. Everyone persuaded me to eat something but I didn't cause I was on the verge of vomitting. So in the end, the very kind Zhiying, Nadine and Priscilla helped me carry my bag and by shoebag alllllllll the way up to the 4th floor! :D (You all are lucky that I didn't bring any books at all today man.) Thanks alot guys :)

As a result, I was starving when we had our second break. Guess what? I ate 25 wantons in total. Yes, call me Wanton Hero. Zhiying ate 18 and Sharmos and Nadine ate 6 each. Lol. We are the Wonton Clique!!! :D

Anyway, tomorrow's the prize presentation ceromony and pray, pray, PRAYYYY that I don't trip and fall flat on the ground with my arms spread out wide when walking up the stairs of the stage.