Hello all. It's my 222nd post so I've decided to change my url today. So here it is:

www.wontstandlosingyou.blogspot.com

Bye bye, old blog.

Ican'tbreathe.

OH MY GOD. THE FUNNIEST THING ON EARTH HAPPENED TODAY. I ran too fast when playing Dog and Bone and I couldn't stop. So I went on my knees and started to crawl to break. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. LAUGH OUT LOUD LOUD LOUD. Just kill me now.

Common test was..well, HAHA. Didn't really study THAT much. Maths was okay. Physics was a killer. Oh man. Talking about it makes me wanna kill TPH. Won't come out, won't come out. In the end what happen leh. It came out and worth 4 marks somemore. EVERYONE LET'S CLAP OUR HANDS AND SHOUT HOORAY.

Aww mannnn!!! Physics is a gone case for me eh. Walao. Sec 1 camp is tomorrow and I'll be so lonely at home! :((( Anybody wanna come and have some fun with me? Heh. :D

HEY! BLOGGER'S ALRIGHT NOW!! WOOHOO!! :D

OH DAMN IT. BLOGGER STILL HAVEN'T RECOVERRRRR!!! >:( It is making my life seem so dull. All black and white. MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH ALOT OF COLOURS ONE OKAY.

AND NG WAN LENG YOU IDIOT. DO YOU KNOW THAT MY SHIN IS SWOLLEN BECAUSE YOU PUSHED ME INTO THE POOL AND I HIT THE STEPS. NOW GOT ONE BIG BIG BLUE BLACK! ASSHOLE. >:(

Okay. I planned to study Maths for the whole of today and guess what. I came home at 3 and went for a swim till 3.30 and used the computer till 6 and did my work for half and hour and then eat my dinner and here I am again, infront of the computer. Say Sayonara to my marks.

There's something wrong with blogger. I can't change the font size or the colour or the position of the text. -_____- Shit you. My blog is already plain enough and now you want to make it even worse. WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME HUH HUH HUH. Walao.

Today is a very, very memoriable day for me cause Miss Ng Wan Leng pushed me into the pool SIX TIMES. And she BROKE MY SLIPPER. IDIOTTTTTTTTTT. MY FAVOURITE SLIPPER LEHHHHH. WALAOOO. Humph. You're gonna get it someday. I swear. >:(

I got all wet and was dripping all over. It was already bad enough and she made it even worse by throwing my slipper all the way to the other end of the pool. You rock man.

Met Xue Wen and her sister, Xue Xin, in Compass Point. Oh man, Xue Xin is oh so cute! :D She chased Dominica Tan all over the place and they two look like mad people trying to run away from each other. HAHAHAHA. Poor Xue Wen fell down from the escalator while trying to run away from Dominica. I think it is so funny. Imagine her running up the escalator because some mad woman was chasing her behind and suddenly, "PIANG!" (Fine. I don't know how to describe the sound effect.) She missed a step and hit her toes on the end of the escalator. HAHAHAHAHA. I know it's mean but I can't help it. IT IS VERY FUNNY.

Bought Mum's gift and headed home. I'm supposed to type out the Science notes but here I am blogging. Praise the Lord. There is still Maths and Science test on Monday and I am already in a post-exam mood. HOWWWWWW.

Okay. As usual, alot of things happened recently. Literature test is tomorrow and I still haven't got the sense of urgency yet. Yes. Just kill me now.

I went crazy this afternoon during art. Talking to Zhiying in a ghostly way, playing with penknives. Cause at that moment, I really missed you terribly. So much so that I almost brokedown at that point of time. You are at fault for making me like this.

You are out there enjoying yourself with her, while here I am waiting for your stupid reply like a fool. Do you know how much it hurts? Well, I bet you don't, cause that's your job.

I was looking forward to seeing you. But when I do, all I get is your silence. I tried being friendly. I tried. But all I got back was your stare, cold and empty. I hate it. Cause in those eyes, I see her.

I tried acting like it didn't affect me a single bit. I tried being positive about it. But when I do, you don't.

I miss your voice. I miss how cheerful you were. I miss how we talked on the phone for hours and not get bored cause we've got so much to talk about. I miss how we used to make fun of each other. I miss the times when you were there when I needed someone to talk to. I miss those funny conversations. I miss those times when we were really, really, good friends. I miss how you always confide in me. I miss how you always ask me for advice. I miss how you showered me with your love but I didn't appreciate. I miss how you asked me to take care when I was sick. And most of all, I miss you.

Can I have all of them back, please? I don't need you to be there always. I don't need you to love me like you used to. I don't need you to take care of me. And I don't need you to spend hours talking to me on the phone. All I'm asking for is for us to be good friends like how we used to be. Is that so hard to give?

I sat there till the darkness fell, and wished you were here. But then again, I wasn't so sure.

I feel like I need to understand more than I do.

Sometimes, you make me wanna melt.
Sometimes, you make me wanna hit you in the face.
Sometimes, you make me go all "Aww.."
Sometimes, you make me feel like a fool.

I'm really at loss of what to say, what to do.
Cause all I can think of right now is You.
When I saw how happy you were with her,
I went all sad and sour.

I left you all alone, hanging there by yourself before. And now, I want you back. I know I'm being selfish. But I can't help it, can I? Because I can't control the way I feel, though I really wish I could.

Some say time will heal. Some say time will kill. I chose the first option...but I'm hurting even more than I did. Then I tried the second option...but things just got worse. I can only lose you bit by bit, a little at a time. So I've tried ways and means to try and learn to let go.

And finally, I've come to a conclusion.

I need to learn how to love again.

Damn it. Blogger destoyed by blog. >:( Now my blogskin becomes like this. Just plain Orange and White. Oh, great.

Thanks Clique for making me feel so much better today. Love you guys. :) Can't wait for the Clique outing! :D

Chinese results tomorrow. KILL ME NOW.

The thought, the thought, the thought. LOL. Joyce ah Joyce. HAHAHAHHAHA.

Paper cut. KILL ME FAST.

Common tests coming soon. KILL ME ON THE SPOT.

-Dead-