Okay. As usual, alot of things happened recently. Literature test is tomorrow and I still haven't got the sense of urgency yet. Yes. Just kill me now.

I went crazy this afternoon during art. Talking to Zhiying in a ghostly way, playing with penknives. Cause at that moment, I really missed you terribly. So much so that I almost brokedown at that point of time. You are at fault for making me like this.

You are out there enjoying yourself with her, while here I am waiting for your stupid reply like a fool. Do you know how much it hurts? Well, I bet you don't, cause that's your job.

I was looking forward to seeing you. But when I do, all I get is your silence. I tried being friendly. I tried. But all I got back was your stare, cold and empty. I hate it. Cause in those eyes, I see her.

I tried acting like it didn't affect me a single bit. I tried being positive about it. But when I do, you don't.

I miss your voice. I miss how cheerful you were. I miss how we talked on the phone for hours and not get bored cause we've got so much to talk about. I miss how we used to make fun of each other. I miss the times when you were there when I needed someone to talk to. I miss those funny conversations. I miss those times when we were really, really, good friends. I miss how you always confide in me. I miss how you always ask me for advice. I miss how you showered me with your love but I didn't appreciate. I miss how you asked me to take care when I was sick. And most of all, I miss you.

Can I have all of them back, please? I don't need you to be there always. I don't need you to love me like you used to. I don't need you to take care of me. And I don't need you to spend hours talking to me on the phone. All I'm asking for is for us to be good friends like how we used to be. Is that so hard to give?

I sat there till the darkness fell, and wished you were here. But then again, I wasn't so sure.