oh my shit..everyone who is reading this..please note one thing: I AM VERY, EXTREMELY, ALL THE TIME, SCARED OF THE DARK. THIS IS NOT FUNNY. CAUSE I WAS SO SCARED TILL I CRIED. EVEN THE GIRL WHOM I THOUGHT WAS STRONG CRIED. poon zhiying =) AND WE ARE OUTSIDE OUR SCHOOL. IT WAS SO, SO DESERTED. AND 5 OF US WERE LIKE STANDING THERE WAITING FOR A CAB. WTH. WHAT ARE CABS FOR WHEN YOU NEED TO GET OUT OF A DESERTED PLACE BUT THERE ISN'T A SINGLE ONE, AND IF HAVE, THEY ARE ALL OCCUPIED. EVEN TRIED CALLING ALL THE DIFFERENT TYPES OF TAXI AND IT DIDN'T HELP LA! HOW CAN?! AND I ALMOST THOUGHT I LOST MY WALLET OK...THEN I CALLED MY MAID DOWN...DEN ON MY WAY UPSTAIRS...I REALISED IT WAS IN MY POCKET -.-" ok...is like so late and me, zhiying, jillian, priscilla and a girl reached school after the competition. (omg..the competition..i have alot of things to say..later later..) and all because of zhiying, the birthday girl, wanted to take her presents from the badminton carboard which is OUTSIDE THE HALL. THE HALL. omg..we had to walk through every where, from the front to the back of the school..and everywhere was dark. can you imagine? omg..it was so so freaky..and we were screaming...and hesitating wether to walk pass the lab area...so we just sang 'happy birthday' and walked very quickly all the way to the hall...everyone was scared of the orange light...lol..which was coming from the hall...it was just normal lights...and everyone was so scared...hahaaha...and we quickly take and go...and we waited, and waited, and waited, till we almost dieded, and we even crieded, we as in me and zhiying...cause it was seriously very dark...so jillian was like conforting us...so finally, we got into one...so, being such a kind soul, i told the uncle to drive to kovan then to sengkang..and i was left alone in the taxi like that. i am never ever going home alone in a taxi ever again in the night. the end. what an interesting ending right. ok. next story---->
OMG OMG OMG!!! WE GOT IN THE THE SEMI-FINALS!!! I CAN'T BELIEVE IT LA! I DIDN'T THINK WE COULD BEAT CCH 4-1..I SERIOUSLY THOUGHT THE MOST WE COULD HAVE WON IS 3-2...OMG...MY SENIORS ROCK! ALL THE WAY! ESPECIALLY MY ZOO-KEEPER A.K.A JILLIAN AND SUANN!!! JUST LOOK AT HOW THEY PLAY. AND YOU WILL JUST DROP DEAD DUE TO THE SHOCK AND GAN-CHEONG-NESS...i was screaming like crazy crazy all the way la...ALL THE WAY...i was praying so badly to let my seniors get in...and somemore today was so crucial la...if we lose we wont get to play anymore la...so..yea..AND WE DID IT!! WE WON!! EXACTLY WHAT WE WANTED THE SCORE TO BE!! WOOT!!! HAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA....but....semi-finals we playing with RGS...which we have very low opportunity to win...cause they are seriously very good....way better than us...and everyone was sweating like mad dogs..and shouting like crazy...everything paid off anyway =) and AHS IS OUT. LOL. THEY DESERVED IT FOR DOING SO MANY UNHEALTHY STUFF. thats all i can say for them...FULL-STOP.

Yesterday
OMG!!! I AN SO HAPPY. WE WON AHS!!! Anyway, its fair...they won us with a score of 3-2 in the zonal competition and now we win them with the score of 3-2 in the Nationals...AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, WE PLAYED IT FAIR. NOT LIKE YOUR STUBBORN COACH-WHO-SERIOUSLY-NEEDS-TO-WEAR-BRACES-BEFORE-ITS-TOO-LATE, who doesn't want to admit that you all lost, and ARGUED with the UMPIRE to get a pathetic point -.-" ok. this is what happened: AHS was playing with CCH ('B' div) and for the doubles match, AHS hit the ball and i don't know where it landed...but the umpire says it was OUT...umpire has the highest authority, so wadever he says is final la...BUT, the AHS ppl claimed that it was IN. So, their coach went to argue for this pathetic point, and he blew the whole matter up, by insisting to change the umpire. LIKE PLEASE LA. WHO IS HE TO SAY CHANGE MEANS CHANGE? So he sort of barged in and quarrelled with the umpire about the point. so the umpire says their coach was rude...and said he was a NAUGHTY BOY...LOL!!! i laughed when i heard that la...the way the umpire say was so funny...and their coach pretend not to listen and pretended to message and look at other school's match...LOL..it was so embarrassing la..then the umpire asked him to get out of the hall..lol..then he stubborn...then all the AHS ppl all shout at the umpire and tell him to continue with the game la..SHOUT...who are they to shout at him?? like teacher like students...it was expected...anyway...CCH won..which was good..cause they deserved it... =D
and then later the umpire said that if he has a red card now he will use it and kick AHS out...HAHA. i love the umpire. and then one person shouted : "deh! can what! your shirt is red what!" one of the students said that leh...so rude la! den the umpire said he want to write letter to their school and sack this coach...HAHA. who ask them..side-line coach somemore la...they got away with it once...but they didn't for the second time! aha! and then their teacher was also very stubborn...i can't stand the teacher's attitude...just look at her face and you will know...i hope they bring this matter up to the table-tennis association thing or what...then they can fire the coach...very good...AHS deserved it for being like that..this is only fair =)
Today
haiyoooo...we lost to Cedar by 0-5 leh...and the 'B' Div lost to AHS by 2-3 la!!!! OMG...and they were SIDE-LINE COACHING AGAIN....WTH...but this time we complained to the umpire...and the umpire asked them what were they doing..and they said the handsign meant 'good'...omg...please...only blind ppl will believe you la...but we can't blame the umpire cause he was busy watching the game...omg...they cheated and they won..AGAIN...i can't stand them...especially one of the singles...woah..i tell you...win one point shout one time and must throw her fist up so high...so extra...BUT...THE 'C' Div FOR AHS IS OUT ALREADY!! so now for tomorrow's match we both have quite strong team...Dunman High for 'C' Div and Chung Cheng High for 'B' Div...very gan chiong tomorrow...and I LOVE VENDING MACHINES =D we were like playing a game..choose 2 drinks..then keep on pressing pressing and see whose come out first..LOL...is very very fun...go try it..you wont regret =D

I was so, so alone on my way home in the taxi...i was wishing that if only you were there by my side at that very moment...to confort me..to protect me cause you know that i am afraid of the dark...to talk to me...to lend me a listening ear...Do you know that i was so afraid? i was so afraid that something would happen...i was so afraid that i would lose you...but i already had...and that made me teared...where were you when i needed you most?

just cutted my hair...thin it a little...looks better =) going to be really really busy next week..everyday got competition...except tues...hope i can catch up on my work..was tickled till i almost dieded yesterday by my cousins....lol..we were playing the guess the number game..and whoever guessed it will get tickled for 20secs...LOL...dam funny...watch Chinese Paladin and it was GREAT...I LOVE THAT SHOW...nothing really happened on Sat though...had training...and Pupil's Profiling...was fun...tested you alot in your mental strength...yupp...had sports day on fri...was extrememly warm...had the drums from someone who paid for it but left it there...i love yellow..DODSWORTH ROCKS...i love the cheer...i love the atmosphere...i love the people...everything was just great...although we didnt win anything...but at least we got champion for mass cheer competition last year..thats good enough..we shouldnt be too selfish and keep the title...we should share it with other people =)...anyway..wish PL table-tennis all the best for the next whole week...!

I am so disappointed in you..trying to push me away by introducing me to other guys...asking your friends to tell me that you have a girlfriend...just because you dont want me to get hurt even more...you dont want me to like you anymore..so you try to act like you dont really care...well..do you know what? That hurt me even more...why must you do this to me? i don't care if all those which were said by your friends are true...i still love you..and you know that too...then why? why must you do this to me? the way you acted was so fake...i knew you were lying...but you told me before you would only lie to me if it does me good...is that true? well...i'm beginning to suspect if it is...

Congratulations to PL table-tennis team again for beating New Town Sec 5:0 !!!(senior and junior) must do your best on Monday...try your best to win Nanyang...althought most likely we won' win...anyway...ALL THE BEST!! and Anferson and New Town...though we won you...but..you all played well =)
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today was nothing special...except had tournament at ChunCheng High....it was as bored as usual...even though i only been there for a second time...BUT...everything seemed so...familiar and bored...as though its my primary school..though it looks so, so, different..just so bored facing the same old hall...not really same-old-hall kinda thing..its just a feeling that tells me its a same-old-hall..HAIYA...I CAN'T BE BOTHERED..EVEN TALKING ABOUT IT MAKES ME SO BORED..ahhahahahahaha....ok. serious. i can't be a good seal...LOL...i can't walk like one...i can't eat raw fish..which most seals can..ahahahhaha...and i can't jump through a hoop or balance a ball on my nose...but at least i can clap to the rythemn....i think i'm still a junior seal...and my zoo-keeper...hmm...i should really consider if she is a good one...lol...zhiying ah zhiying....please please PLEASE practise and improve in your clapping...i really wanna recruit you in my team..i don't want to be the only on suffering under jillian's hands...HELP ME PLEASE...

yay!! congratulations to PLMGSS table-tennis team!!! woohoo!!! we won Anderson Sec with a score of 4-1 ('B' Div) and 5-0 ('C' Div) yay!!! let us all work hard together and challenge with New Town Sec tomorrow!!! all the way!!!
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urgh...i so HATE the rain...(unless i'm at home with the computer on, and a hot cup of tea...ooooooohh...)it made me wet...WET...WET...ALL WET...i stayed back in school for the house meeting...i thought it was compulsary...BUT...it was not...SHIT...I WASTED MY FREE TIME!! and me and Zhiying were like hanging around in school...doing nothing...and we went to the library, hoping to use the computers there to blog...BUT...there were some selfish people who used the computers for so, so, SO LONG...so we just have to WAIT, WAIT, WAIT SO LONG...in the end...we didn't use...but...we went to look at some books..and i realised 2 more people look like zhiying...one girl from the storybook (which is a cartoon) and one girl...(Zhiying, your face is just so common..be glad you are the original one...) We spent 3 hours just like that..walking around..up and down...top and under...and we had a 'Silent Talk' on the board...LOL...we were writing our replies instead of saying..i think people should do that often..it reduces noise pollution...but..sort of increases air pollution as well..cause of the smell from the markers...anyway..at least there is a change in the type of pollution..so it's not so bad...and Joyce made my day!!! woohoo!! thanks Joyce! Love you! LOL...she made my day by telling me early that Ms Chew was not here!!! woot!!! i was so happy..lol...and Ah Chew scolded me for asking sarah a question...and said i was talking...and made me sit right in the FRONT...WTH...she is simply OUT..i can't stand her..make me sit infront nvm...but sitting infront means seeing her face a hearing her voice even clearer!! SHIT...I WONDER HOW CAN I EVER CARRY ON LIKE THIS...and that was yesterday..but today...she wasn't here!! ahahahhahahahaha...i love today..except for the rain...and the house meeting..if not for that, i wouldn't have got drenched...SHIT...me and Zhiying was like rummaging through the backstage of the hall to look for cardboards...lol...i for got to bring my umbrella!!! raining, never bring...never rain, got bring..WALAO...den i managed to find one...and another for her..so we were like carrying our bags infront...and we were walking VERY QUICKLY...amd the rain is slowly, slowly seeping through the cardboard..lol..and when i was about to reach the bus stop...i gave up..lol..i just take away the cardboard and walked...hahahahaha...i was all wet...and desperate for an umbrella..and Sharmaine came to the rescue!!! she came...and fetch Sharon..and she gave me her umbrella!!! so i happily boarded the bus...and the tv was showing about the CommonWealth Games...so zhiying wanted to watch...but..i kept interfering..LOL...i asked her stupid questions..just to test her patience...lol..she indeed WAS patient...congrads...hahhaaa...and the house meeting required us to hit the drums according to the beat..and zhiying LOST THE BEAT...haahahahahaahhahahaha...ahahahahahhahahahahaahaha....as usual...nothing special...BUT...i told her to practised...and SHE FAILED THE TEST...HOW CAN SHE...i spend soooo much time coaching her...and she like that...haizz...*shakes head* wu2 yao4 ke3 jiu4 already la...out..out..OUT...i should consider VERY VERY CAREFULLY...weather or not to recruit her in my Seal Team..hmmmm.....and Sheryl got stung by a bee...hahahahaahaha...of all people..why must it be her? hahahahhahahah...and can't she feel the bee landing on her arm? haahahahhhha...IT'S JUST SO FUNNY...

I CAN'T STAND THE UZAP ADVERTISEMENT...IT IS GETTING ON MY NERVES!!! keep on repeating non-stop...NON-STOP OK I TELL YOU FIRST...it's so irritating la!!!

zap zap fu bu zap zap fu bu zap zap fu bu zap zap zap zap Uzap
zap zap tui bu zap zap tui bu zap zap Uzap
zap zap da tui zap zap da tui zap zap da tui zap zap zap zap Uzap

I SO HATE THE UZAP-ING....WHY DOES IT KEEEEEEP ON REPEATING ITSELF OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN?? i really don't understand why...

its just sian-ness all the wayyyyyy....having monday sian-ness...did the personality test during contact time...or CME period or wadever...the results shows that i am very talkative...HAHA...how right..i AM talkative...i love doing the test..so fun..and zhiying...lol...hahahahahahahaha...talking about her makes me laugh....hahhaha...i asked her to clap like a seal...and she did it!! hooray!!! i wanted to recruit her in my seal-team..BUT...jillian the zoo-keeper says that she still cannot clap to the beat..well...will wait till the next chapel to see the results...the FINAL RESULTS...hahahhaah...do stay-tune...tomorrow is the first day of competition!!! argh!! and janice.y is INJURED!!! walaoooooo...who is going to play then??? walao..janice...you know competition coming you still kay-kiang...go join your taekuando (don't know how to spell) competition! see la! now how?? last minute how to find replacement?? haiyooooooooo........

I can't help it but to post again about the match we had against a PARTICULAR school 1 month ago...i just read their blog and i realised how disgraceful they had been to their school...using underhand means to win the title..WOW...YOU PEOPLE ARE SO GREAT...and to the pathetic team,

Please. Get a life now, IMMEDATELY...trying to sideline coach by standing directly opposite your player...and doing it so obvious...if you wanna sideline coach can you please also do it more professionally...i bet you all learn it from your-coach-who-seriously-needs-to-wear-braces-before-it's-too-late...
I really wonder what you all learn in school...and i also wonder what your-coach-who-seriously-needs-to-wear-braces-before-it's-too-late teaches you during your training...i bet its nothing good...and do you people know what is sportsmanship?? i don't think so...go check the dictionary...and put it in your brain...(that is if you all even have one...) and you wanna cut up our banner? sure, go ahead...cause i think this is the very first time you all got champion...you are too excited about it...this i can understand =) but there is one more thing which i think you all don't have (and i really wonder if you all will EVER have..) and that is a CLEAR CONSIENCE...you may feel guilty after reading this..well you should. If you don't, I think you are so USED to this feeling. Am I right? In fact, after the match, you all even have a treat from your-coach-who-seriously-needs-to-wear-braces-before-it's-too-late...he is rewarding you all for sideline coaching?? WOW...he seriously IS a good coach..you people should cherish him more =) But it's a pity his english isn't that great...cause he don't even know what's the diference between THROW and BRING...you people are so smart..so you all should give him tuition...i bet this will help him ALOT...it will do you all good to...and one of your trophy broke? HAHAHA. Serves you right...this shows you all don't deserve it. even the trophy hates you. During one of the match, your team-mate faulted your player...well, i admire her for that courage to do so...BUT...what about your-coach-who-seriously-needs-to-wear-braces-before-it's-too-late? He is so afraid that you all will lose that he threatens your team-mate...if she really fault your player a second time...i wonder if he REALLY will kick her out of your team..if he does, then i am sure he also doesn't know what is sportsmanship...after you all check the dictionary, pass it to him. He needs it more than you. If you all don't have one, go Popular and buy. Get those discounted one. It's cheap.

today's training was a little weird...why werid i also dunno..just felt weird..but was really happy and relieved when J helped me tell L about that thing...=D (thanks a million!) the wahahahahahahahahahhaah...still don't know how to walk in a seal way...and seal is spelled as seel or seal?? jillian and janice.y keeps saying it's seel...lol...so funny...SEEL..ahahahahahahah....if only that WOMEN didnt cancel the class outing...i would have a great time yesterday...so many ppl go to have their class outing..and 1B2 and 1A2 is just simply pathetic...stay at home...ahahahahaah....anyway...tournament is on tue...must jia you...all the way! ALL THE WAY!!! HAAHHAHAAHHAHAHAAHHA.....

Do you remember the times when you told me you would only lie to me if it meant me good?Do you remember the times when you called me "my little princess"?
Do you remember the times when you called me sweetie?
Do you remember the times when you "kissed" me?
Do you remember the times when i wanted to drink water...but i saw something white flew across...and you told me your love was there to protect me?
Do you remember the times when i didnt eat...and you told me that i should, cause you would feel heartbroken if i'm sick?
Do you remember the times when i listened to you and you said "that's my girl" and "kissed" me?
Do you remember the times when you were so pissed with your dad outside the movies and went home alone...and i was there for you but you didnt reply my messages cause you were afraid you would get angry with me?
Do you remember the times when i didnt bring my handphone out and didn't reply your messages...and you thought that my dad was beating me and you were so worried?
Do you remember the times when i was sick and didnt go to see the doctor but you encouraged me to go cause you would feel heartbroken if it got worse?
Do you remember the times when you asked me what i wanted for my birthday...and i said nothing...but you asked me if i wanted you and i immediately said yes?
Do you remember the times when we spent hours and hours messaging each other?
Do you remember the times when you got angry with me cause i said its nothing when my father beats me?
Do you remember the times before you went for your camp and we were reluctant to stop messaging each other?
Do you remember the times when you called me a silly girl?
Do you remember it was the 6 of December we first started?
Do you remember the times when you said you were crazy about me?
Do you remember the times when you said i was special?
Do you remember the times when you told me you loved me?


I just can't erase them off my mind..they are too precious...they once made me feel that i was the luckiest girl in the world...they once made me feel that you are so so special to me and i never wanted to let you go... I'm wondering why thinking of those happy times with you brings me tears...and I'm wondering why thinking of those times we argued brings me laughters.
There are so many, so many sweet memories we had...and i remembered them all...but do you??

today is a great day for meeeeeee....EEEE!!!!! hahaahahahhahaahaahahahah...ok. serious. *eh-hem* i woke up and immediately did my homework =) i thought got alot..so wake up at 8...in the end...finished at 11..lol...wake up so early for nothing...then revised my work..this is the FIRST AND VERY FIRST TIME im revising my work =) great eh? no wonder my test is so badly done...dunno who tell me sec1 can relax leh...I WONDER WHO...anyway..my sunburn is MUCH better now...wooty woot woot! hahahaha....

watched the campus superstar again...i love geraldine =) i love adriano =) i love yuyang =) i love renfred =) i love zhiyang =) renfred danced until so cute!!! ahahahahhahaa....

went to sembawang for dinner...but bought the-thing-that-i-crave-for-since-sunday!!!! DORITOS!!! WOOT!!! yummy yum yum...hahahahahahah....den went to Giant...bought loads of rubbish food...trying to make my dad happy so later i can show him my results =D after all the shopping and fooling around...finally got home...when my dad was teaching my sis how to do maths on the comp...i quickly go take my result slip...lol...den when he busy that time i purposely ask him to see...my heart was thumping so fast...i tell you first..S O D A M F A S T...on the spot ok...i tell you first..all the way...haahahahahahhaah....then in the end he just said he dun wan to see such results again!! wooot!!! woaahhhh...soooo luckyyyyyyyy lehhhhhhhh...then he just sign...hahahahahaahahahahahha...so happy...so happyyy...YYY!!! haahahahaah...but. i. must. work. hard. much. harder. in. order. to. continue. my cca. if. not. my. dad. going. to. write. letter. to. teacher. to. tell. her. to. allow. me. to. stop. my. cca. hahahaahahahha......hahahahahha....^^

PATRICIA MOK ROCKS. PATRICIA MOK ROCKS. ahahahahahahahahahahha..she is dam funny la! hahahaha....

*Sorry for the interuption. This is a reminder to Zhiying of 1B2. Please practise your clapping. Thank you.* (hahaahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaahhahahaahhahah)

THE SUNBURN IS KILLING ME...shit...and today's training...actually after.. was SO FUNNY...lol...JILLIAN!! im a seal...im a seal...lol...thats wad you wanted me to do right? ZOO KEEPER...lol..train me....train me..train me to jump through the hula-hoop...train me balance the ball on my nose..train me to walk on my tummy :D and all this started all thanks to POON ZHIYING...WHO ASK YOU..CLAP SO SLOW...SO DAM OUT...SEE LA...NOW IM BEING CALLED A SEAL...CAUSE I IMMITATED YOU...i wanted to recruit you in my team..but jillian says you clap too slow..so later spoil the show mah...so im the only one in the team...how sad...must improve in your clapping k? i wish you ALL THE BEST! (hahahahahahahahahahahhahaahahaahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahaahaha)

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!! MY SHOULDERS ARE KILLING ME!! i have sunburn...a very serious one..oh shit oh shit...its hurting so badly...inside...and the OUTSIDE...oh shit...i went to kelly's hse yesterday for a swim...i swam 10 laps...alone...its great actualy...i get to think about all the stuff that has happened...and i get to think really deeply into it...and i sort of understood what is true love..yupp..and after swimming shawn extra come and swim...in the end swim a while then go already...lol...den waited for kelly...den we talked about some stuff...den went to her room...played comp...and saw some pretty girls in friendster...wow...they're style are like so...ALL THE WAY man...and then wnet to eat lunch...den went back to her room...was like thinking of wad to do...then we were like lingering around...den we wanted to play cooking and stuff like that...lol..suddenly felt like playing....we went to get the cashier set...but counld not find the rest of the stuff...so never play lor...den kelly tried painting my nails in strips of black and white...lol...SHE FAILED...so ugly..lol...den stopped..after awhile..i went home...had a great dinner..den went to my aunt's house to pass her somehting..in the end stayed there till 10+...laugh until like siao..haizz...MY SHOULDERS ARE ALL RED...SO SORE...I HATE THE SUN...RAYS...MADE ME SUFFER SO MUCH...CAN'T EVEN SLEEP PROPERLY...THE SHIRT KEEP ON RUBBING AND RUBBING MY SHOULDERS..PAIN LIKE SIAO...ARGH!!!

Its a mystery why we fall in love. It's a mystery how it happens. It's a mytery how it comes. Its a mystery why some love grows, and it is a mystery why some love fails. Just as life, is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that cannot be questioned in its ways. Remember that you don't choose love,love chooses you. All you can do is to accept it for all its mystery when it comes to your life. Feel the way it feels you to overflowing,then reach out and give it away. Love has its own time, its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it for staying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you. But if love chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and will always be a mystery. Be glad that it came to live a moment in your life. If you keep your heart open, it will come again. (This is so so true...)

OMG LA...I JUST CAN'T STAND THE BLOODY MS CHEW LA!!! she cancelled the class outing cause she claims we didn't hand in our proposal to peer leaders to hand in the her...so she cannot present it to principal to issue consent form...PLEASE. we already prepared...is just that we could'nt find those peer leaders..and is also because she is LAZY. JUST PLAIN LAZY. cause she still has to sort of re-write the proposal to present it to principal to approve..WALAO...other classes their teacher like help them even though there is not enough time la...LAZY JUST SAY CAN...blame us...walaooooo just can't stand her la...and hor...actually i can't wait for school to end so i can have training...but everything just seems to go wrong today la...during pw..I wasthe one doing the work...the rest were staring into space or singing or talking to other ppl frm other grp..i thought of 9 responses for 1st qsn..and 10 responses for the other qsn...and u all only contributed ONE -.-" and we were supposed to have 25 responses for 1st and 75 for the other la...and we are like not co-operating...this spoiled my mood COMPLETELY...and during training was so far ok..until the end when i ACCIDENTLY stepped on my senior's foot...so she want to step back mine...den i was like dodging la...and the women go and scold me -.-" WALAO!! SHE IS SO UNREASONABLE CAN??? den i told her it was not me...it was the other senior..and say they are all our seniors..so we shouldn't treat them like that...wtf...so we junior then can let you anyhow scold la?? wad crap la ok...and when we were all helping to arrange the chairs...you keep on messaging your whoever..only help out a little...then until we arrange finish..then come and extra..act like so fed-up...you were MESSAGING ok...walaoooooo..dam unreasonable la...oh ya...and ppl discovered some kind of new-born bird...it was still red..without feathers...and they all used the dustpan to sweep it away la!! so cruel!!! omg..today suck completely....

today after school was so farny...and during chapel..lol..CHAPEL TODAY ROCKS!! is like there is a band...which has only 3 ppl in it...they came to play during our chapel..they are frm dunno wad church...omg..is dam shiok..all the drums and electric guitar and stuff..wah kao...so nice..this is the first time i enjoyed chapel so much :) and was sitting in between zhiying and mel...lol..talking about zhiying makes me wanna LAUGH LIKE HELL...lol..seriously...she has NO sense of rythem...lol..everyone was like clapping to the rythem..and she keeps loosing it...lol...is dam faunny...she was like getting it..than later the rythem change a little or something than she lost it again..so she have to like look at what people are clapping so when they clap, then she follow...lol!!! is so so funny..the whole of chapel we were laughing about it la...is so funny!!! then after school...i was like teasing her about her "gan chiong-ness"...lol..she everyday..after bell ring..teacher leave..STRAIGHT AWAY pack up and go off...lol..STRAIGHT AWAY..so i was like walking to the bus-stop with her..than i want to buy dividers...so i went to the book shop and she was like zek-ing away...say faster faster..lol...so gan chiong for wad??? then she say almost everyday she is like staying back...so now free wan faster go home -.-" such a lame excuse...lol...den i went in to buy..den i asked for another kind of divider...den the aunty say dun have..and she was explaining why dun have-.-" den later she say haiya...zhe4 zhong3 ren2 hen3 fan2 de4 la4...walao...i tell you...slap her face arh..den later on the way to the bus-stop we were like talking about who is straight and who is crooked....den later in the bus i was like pssing her off..lol..cause i pretend cannot hear wad she was talking...than i keep saying she has no patience...lol..den she say have..last year she was in patient class...-.-" so wad if she is in patient class...lol...k..enough of her...I CAN'T WAIT FOR THE CAMP!!!! (zhiying...i'm so sorry =P lol..just pray it won't come on that date..then u can enjoy urself while sleeping and dun need to sit on chair and sleep on the table =D ) is like a year since i have been to a camp..and i have always dreaded to go to camps last time..but now...OMG..I JUST CAN'T WAIT!! WOOT!!! and i LOVE WEDNESDAYS...i dunno why..cause it always seem shorter =) and i love cca days =) trainings are so fun with those friends of mine...i love saturdays...cause i get to see my cousins and get to watch the 9pm show on channel U...omg..i SSSOOOO LOVE THAT SHOW LA!!! i'm beginning to love everything, everyday and everyone...=)

i don't mind to sleep forever...just to forget you...i tried so hard...but i just can't seem to let go...i still love you..i still do...but...maybe its just meant to be...i can't help it...and i missed you so much suddenly and almost teared during chapel when the man was singing a particular song...and thanks to zhiying..she made me laugh...cause of her loosing the rythem when she claps..wahahaha...A BIG THANK YOU!

i hope time heals all...the memories you have left behind are great...but no matter what, it has all became a part of my life...and i've not wasted it...i will miss the times we had spent together..definitely...but..i shall just treat it like a nightmare...a nightmare that is bitter-sweet (sour and salty =D )...but i'm sure that this is the nightmare that one would wish so badly to have...but somehow..i've sort of woken up from it...and i'm back to the same old me...i just hope time heals all...i really wish it does...here is something for that special you..i composed it myself... =)

I miss the times we had...

I miss the memories we shared...

Why must this happen to me?

Or is it just meant to be?

I need you by my side now and forever...

I wanna be together...

With you,

I will not feel blue...

When I'm sad,

You'll go mad...

Cause you always try so hard to make me smile...

And go the extra mile...

I love you...

And will always do...

I hope you like this...I took only 10min to do this! (during chinese lessons...=D)

Am i willing to sacrifice my time to love you? Am i willing to give up a huge space for that special you in my heart? Are you worth to be lingering in my thoughts? Is my love for you real? or is it just and affection? Will i change my mind of loving you when i see other guys?

All these questions are the questions that i have been thinking of over this period of time...

Yes. I'm willing to sacrifice my time for you.
Yes. I'm willing to give up that special place for that special you.
Yes. You are worth it.
Yes. My love for you is real.
No. I will definitely, and will never change my mind of loving you.

These are the answers to the questions...I can assure you that all these answers are true...Well, what about you? are you willing? Am i worth it? Is your love for me real? Will you change your mind?
I may sound like I'm not greatly affected...but the truth is, I'm suffering real badly inside...the tears I shed every night shows how much I'm suffering every single moment...

I don't know if the concern you showed for me before was real...
I don't know if you were just simply toying with my feelings...
I don't know if you already like other girls...
I don't know too many things about how you feel about me cause you never seem to tell me...

After that thing that happened, we seem to be drifting apart..further and further away every moment...and this really hurts...

I told myself to forget you. I tried. But, i failed.
I told myself that you may like other girls, so as to force myself to hate you. I tried. But, i failed.
I told myself that there are many other guys out there. Why should I be wasting my time on you? I tried to stop loving you. But, i failed.

The days without you made me feel sad, dissapointed, angry...but once i look at the Taz you sent me before to cheer me up, I smiled. Once i remembered the nights we spent messaging each other, I smiled.

You told me before that I'm the only girl you would call 'Sweetie'...
You told me before that whenever i feel scared, your love would protect me...
You told me before that i was different from other grils...and that there are plenty of them waiting for you...but you chose me...cause you loved me...and i was special...

When you told me all these..I felt really special...I felt really lucky to have such a guy like you...It was then that i was sure you are the only guy i would love all these 13 years and the years to come...
You may have stopped loving me, stop showing concern for me and stuff, but i just wanna let you know that i will always love you..I don't mind if you don't love me anymore..cause knowing you is the best thing God has given me..and i couldn't ask for more...cause this is more than enough...

I really don't mind if you love another girl...I will give you all my blessings...but...I'll wait...I'll wait till that very special day...till then...

ok...yesterday was having training...but...was dam sickening la...mr kim...walaoooo...he say he was sick of seeing our faces la...say wanna quit...only because of principle so stay on...-.-" den say he is very sian of telling us the same thing over and over again..cos we never listen...i think we are the one who is more sick of u la...u see so many faces... we see onli ONE face ok..tok wad crap...his heart is at badminton when he teaches TT la...he think he wad..superman or wad..one time teach badminton and TT...but badminton also gt assist. coach lor...so he should't be too like busy..instead...he claims that he is more bus -.-" WADEVER~~~

today's classes are as usual...BORING...buuutttt.....during reflection was the BEST time i have ever had..well...not exactly best la..but one of the best with some of the best ppl in class =) IS SO SO SO FARNY.....lol...thinking of it makes me wanna laugh...ok...we were having chinese before reflection period la,..and li lao shi was like wasting EVERYONE'S time...no one was like listening to her la...talking about all those crappy stuff in the newspaper...den once its reflection period...she say nvm nvm...wait a while..a few more questions only...walao...den all the 'competition girls' were supposed to see miss chew for maths tuition or something....so if we late...than she will blame us for being late..not enough time to teach...than say wad..she have to wait for us and bla bla...PLEASE. is not our prob..is the CHINESE TEACHER. so sharmaine i think she cant stand it so she told li lao shi abt it..but li lao shi just nod her head...than carry on...WALAO...so i just sort of said it in a loud loud voice..reminding her...so she was like..okok...xia ke xia ke...lol! dam stubborn la!! so all 5 of us were like walking to the staff room outside...den we sat there la...so like we started talking abt li lao shi...is quite mean la...so i shan't say it...and mrs cummar..lol..we all laugh like SIAO...than wait very long ms chew still haven come...so we like looked into the staff room...but didnt see her..so we continued laughing and laughing...den later left 10min den ms chew FINALLY came out..den she scolded us-.-"" say we didnt tell her we were outside...she onli heard the noises so she think it was us so she came out..den say she was very busy...so nv see the time..WALAO. PLEASE LA. U ARE THE ONE WHO SAID YOU WAN TO MEET US. AND YET YOU DUNNO OUR REFLECTION TIME?? U ARE ALSO OUR FORM TEACHER OK. PLEASE. AND YOU ARE BLAMMING US FOR NOT TELLING U THE TIME WE ENDED. -.-" LAME EXCUSE LA OK.. TOO BUSY SO NEVER SEE THE TIME -.-"" wth...den she was lke saying she dun wan see us..go back to class -.-" extra la. den after maths lesson...she wan us to see her again...so we went..and say the same thing again. den say she give us another chance-.-" please la. i think is the other way more likely la....so..let's wait to next friday =) and see wad will be the final episode...STAY TUNED...

Friday
The outing with seniors was really really fun!!! and i mean FUN!! they rock ppl! ok..erm..went to j8 with them to eat to celebrate the winning of the competition..thought we got a second...and we went to CafeCartel...den we went to take neoprints...the pictures are dam nice...seriously...everyone was perfectly fine..although py's eyes were closed...but the "put on" a pairs of sunglasses for her! lol! den met my cousin there...yupp...
Today
ok...something is seriously wrong with my class ppl today..everyone were like so angry for nth la...one after another...lol..den me, nellyn and zhiying were like talking abt how some ppl change into another totally diff person in just 2 months...we were naming a few...and slowly trying to talk some sense into zhiying, telling her that A (not so nice to reveal her name =D) is giving her two-sided faces...i mean really TWO-SIDED FACES...totally la...ok..and den..nellyn was like talking about B (not so nice to reveal her name either heh~) than i cannot hear properly right...cos the class is seriously noisy..so i like said B's name real louldy...den at the same time she was walking towards us..so she sort of heard it la...den she straight away like open the door so hard...to show that she is anrgy..walao...is like say her name only la..so serious for wad...den when i went out i saw fire coming out of C's ears... ( another person...not so nice to mention her name...i know i'm really considerate..thanks Xp) so angry leh..i also dunno y...and then there is this group of ppl who keeeeeeeeppppps on shouting and screaming NON-STOP. i tell u. NON-STOP . and other classes are still having lessons la...walao...i was dam irritated...but did not want to show..cos so many ppl are angry...i dun wan to be one of them..=)...
AND I FORGOT TO BRING THE LETTER 'A' FOR HOME-ECONS FOR THE THIRD TIME!! and i used fabric paint instead. -.-" so ugly...spoil my whole photoframe...WALAOOOO....den i gt a 9/15 -.-""" so wad lor...AND I GT A C6 FOR ALL SUBJECTS!!!! EXCEPT CHEM AND ENG!!! shit shit shit....